Tgirls, Jobs, Relationships and Depression
3:58AM on April 05, 2010
Well allot of guys are wondering, why do tgirls be about money so much. I mean some tgirls are really passable and look great, while others have issues. I consider myself 80 percent passable. I usually get along with people at the workplace and have for over 14 years, but lately, its like I don't like being strait people.
Lately I am so depressed. I found the guys that I like are not wanting a transsexual. I think that has to do with we want what we can't have. I mean I can get the sex, and everything, but the relationship not so good. I have been in so many relationships that only last like a week to two weeks since I been living in Philly. I see why so many girls are working girls cause they feel they are not respected, and a girl all about money doesn't care about respect, its about making a living.
Allot of guys liking tgirls want tops, for so many different reason. Then there are girls that want versatile. I am really naturally a bottom. When I did adult work I had to do guys, so I developed is other personality that come out to be Vicki. I would degrade guys and call them names, and do them. Then I would go home alone and watch tv. That other personality has made it hard for me to date guys. Because of me being Vicki guys that are tops are like, well thats not the tgirl for me. Plus there are race issues, everyone thinks cause I am dark skinned black and tall, I should be a top. Others think cause I do adult work that I am I working girl. All this judging me makes me even more depressed. I have not done a video in months, and my sex drive is like down. I don't know if its the medicines or just the change in life.
I will tell you a little about me and you can put comments about yourself. Also let me know if you agree or disagree.
I have about done it all. I worked the white collar and the blue collar job. I have worked 12 years of my life as a woman. I have done the adult work thing. Through all that, I decided to move to Philadelphia, PA.
I am from Mississippi, where tgirls are not so loved, but its growing. I transitioned in Jackson, Ms and then moved to Gulfport, Ms to live 7 years as a woman. I eventually moved to Louisiana and was in a relationship with a married man for 7 long years.