My Blog :: This is my place to give much love to all at RUDE.com. To let you into my Bedroom, Home, and Life Style! I need to be intouch with you all! So Come on and veiw my BLOGS and enjoy the BUMPY Ride with me........ Ur Ebony Gal Pal SaXXX

I love this
10:27PM on August 14, 2011

Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you now?
You got someone to blame

You say one love, one life (one life)
It's one need in the night
One love (one love), get to share it
Leaves you darling, if you don't care for it

Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without

Well it's too late, tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
One...

Have you come here for forgiveness?
Have you come to raise the dead?
Have you come here to play Jesus?
To the lepers in your head

Well, did I ask too much, more than a lot?
You gave me nothing, now it's all I got
We're one, but we're not the same
Cos if we, had each other
Then we'd do it again

You say
Love is a temple
Love is a higher law
Love is a temple
Love is the higher law
You ask me to enter
Well then you make me crawl
And I can't keep holding on
To what you got
Cos all you got is hurt

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters and my
Brothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other

One...
One love 

I was looking at ppl clitters & twit this morning and
8:20AM on March 18, 2011

I wish that everyone would stop being so dam mean and nasty to one another, if what is happening in Japan and other nations was happening here do you think we would have time for all the nasty hateful things we speak and do to each other, when did just having fun and enjoying what ever it is that you wanna do to make yourself and someone else happy turn into rivals and taunts, envy, strife, jealousy, and down right mean natured things. Guys I gotta say there is enough for all of us out here why do we choose to beat up on one another?

It's just sad, look around people 2morrows not promised and the adult world is not an entity all by it's self, we are people, moms, dads, people just trying to make some money, and yes hopefully be successful, but not all us can be, neither can we all be stars,but we all can be CIVIL Human Being with hopes and dreams! Stop it already! We all say we Grown but all I see is a bunch of children, bashing each other daily! I ready the clitters the twitters, the comments, and so on and it is no longer a fun thing for me to see, all of you just downing and putting down one another, whether it's the truth or not! people no one company nor person, will always be the top! everyone of use has our time to shine, why must we carry on in the manner that we do. People are fighting for there live's there homes, there lands and we what are we fighting for? Lol! WHO IS The BEST at Sucking and Fucking? WTF? It's just entertainment, meant to bring joy not this shit I read posted up daily, insults and bragging on whose what and so on.

Shame on use all! Maybe when something tragic happen here as it has for the rest of the world, maybe then we will get our acts straight! Non Of use will be or are number one. We all are just selling our Asses. Let's try higher thinking, let's try to up lift, let's do what our hearts desire but with out the hurting of others, by our small bickering and gossiping. Sale lust, but do it tastefully with out the back bitting and bullshit. Come on I know we all are better then what I'm seeing,

I'm Just Saying, Ur Gal Pal SaXXX! Always try to give and do my best  for peace sake! Stop it Grown Ass People?

The Good People, The Bad and Then Theres The Uglies
3:35PM on March 09, 2011

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Why RETOUCH A Real Chick! I don't Sell LIES neither Do I Front.... and why CUMING SOON!
4:51PM on January 17, 2011

Your not the first that has asked me if I want or need retouch service, no offense but I gotta tell people about this RETOUCHING SHIT!! Plus my Camera guy Mr. F would be so insulted, I have to shout him out! He Is the Greatest I have come across, there are two others since this part of my life, one Enrico, and the other that shot me for BT Magazine. So ..............................As everybody else knows this is another one of my pet pevs I get twisted about. I never retouch, I mean why sell a lie,  are my picture that awful? Is they an abunace of scares and or stretch marks and or am I that dam ugly. Why do I get guys hitting me up just cause you see I pic doesnt mean that everything has to be Retouched. I have nothing to hide, but if I was doing a magazine cover and or on TV , movie type shit Hell Yeah babe! But thanks so freaking much.Or are you trying to tell me Ive let my self go??? lol! Na! But really people you are to serous about things that don't require stuff like that,  I was once a fashion model and being a web whore is not that big of a deal for me to need retouch unless my body and face is that out of whack! Or is it that people just trying to hustle up there funds in anyway they can, oh okay. But I don't think I need retouching? To my Fans Do You Think SaXXX needs Retouching? I put up my pic they way they are for a REASON. Beside I thought brothers and men period like the REAL Deal! Non Fronting Itches, Like Me.









One of my very important reasons is to remind myself that I am beautiful just the way I am, fat, skinny, in between, lotion, no lotion lol! Belly poking out, wig , no wig. Whatever I look like, I am proud at my age and all I been through, beat and battered Shit there are women on here half my age look like they been shooting dope in the middle of boxing match! So No guys I dont want retouching. I love my Flaws everyone of them even my gapped teeth, it's what make me me and I stand out. I am not perfect and neither would I want to be, because then where the hell would I find my PERFECT match. NOT! Nobody is. So why would I get on here and put up all these doctored up pics of me. Hey funny story......... a freind of mine, see I getthe horror stories from my many VIP Fans about there let say extra activities. Well anyway He said he went to meet this chick and he printed her picture just in case so he would know what she looked like. He say when he got to the place and knocked on the door a lady answered the door and he walked in and ask for the girl in the picture ( doctored picture, retouched, photoshoped and all that jazz. The lady say's to him it's me! He say's he pulled out the picture he printed and help it up next to the chick and it was so retouch that is was a totally different girl. So he asked is this you? and she say's yes... Lol! He told me before that bitch chould close the door and lock it he had did a U TURN, and left her lying ass standing in the door way, LOL! Ha Ha Ha!......... and so the moral of this story is? SaXXX don't do RETOUCHES, maybe do overs but retouches I pass. But thanks guys I understand your hustles.......................

My Freind loves to Choke me while He Fucks the Shit Out Of Me!
5:54PM on January 10, 2011

My freind loves to choke me as fucks the shit out of me. 


               It usaully Stars out with a sexy but naughty text, a lil something like " SaXXX I wanna fuck the Shit Out Of You right now"! ! I reply with "Well what's Keeping You"! Then it's On. I get out and jump in the shower because I know he'll be at my door and I don't like to keep my male friends waiting. Especailly at doors. I just love the smell of caress soap, don't you? Well for ladies anyway it leave you smelling so clean, and my skin feels like velvet to the the touch. I soap up my babygal that's my nic name for my pussy. I might be a MILF but from what the guys tell me I kepted my snatch in fine tune shape. Must be all that booty shakin music that I use to dance to. You know that shit is like doing Kagels. Rinsing my body of and then while stillwet I turn of the water and apply my essential oils. Then I dry off by gently pat drying, I never rub away all the moisture thats what help me to stay so dam brimming fine and skin looking right. I love for the air to hit my skin, Plus it adds fun to answering the door naked and smelling good.  I check my face in the mirror to see if maybe just a lil lip gloss and tease my hair. I'm set.

My phone vibrates, and just hearing it causes me to feel wet and excited........
So I throw on my robe cause I know that vib was him and I glide my ass to the door. I open the door a there stand this man built like baby back ribs, Laughing! Dam in my mind I think while letting out a suction noise just a little between my teeth, uyou know like a snake sound. He smile and walk up to me  a leans in and kisses me on my neck wrapping his beefed up arms all around my half naked body. MMM I sniff and he is wearing some cologne that for some reason makes me mouth water. Lol! I don't know why, Girls when a man smells so dam good to me I want just eat them up, like really I wanna bite on them, but sexy bites. We turn and head staight for my room and to my bed. He is tale a very handsom, but got a little mystory about him. But im not caring about that at the moment cause he picks me up a throws me on my bed. I mean like up in the air my feet are not touching ground ladies, lol! But it wasn't rough or abusive, it was like Iwant you woman so bad! I wiggle my way bad towards the head board a crouching over like a cat on all fours. Waiting fo him to drop those jeans to the floor, so I could wrap my fat ass juicy lips around his long and thinck shaft. He was moving way to slow for my taste so I started for his buckle and just as I got my fingers on it, He grabbed me firmly by my neck and told me to turn with my back facing him, I was caught way off guard, but I did as he said, as I turn he just losen his grip long enough for me to turn then he tighten his grip once agian but I could breath just fine His hand were huge. It seem as if just one hand went all the way around my tiny long neck. I could fill him lifting my robe up with the other hand I braced myself by placing my hands on the head board in front of me a opening my legs wider.....


Oops gotta finish a download I started be back ASAp to finish telling you all my true stories...

Yes It's true SaXXX Did Not Go to The AVN as I wanted to
12:30PM on January 09, 2011

Hey People I got to behind and money was very tight, so I made the choice like a week before the AVN Not To Go. "Shit Happens" Right? Yes I was very sad about it, but it gave me some much needed time and I saved that monies and bought myself a brand spankin new HD Cam Corder YEA! Yes I know everyone thing I got it like that, But people the truth is none of us have it like we want it all the time. So I know there a few that will be like" good that icth", But It was my choice and not that I couldn't it was more like what can I do with this money I saved to better help, and produce for myself. There is something to be said about going it alone, and really this year I really want to do a lot of my on footage, be it not so pro, but it will be mine. I am thankful to all that have helped me in learning all this Tech stuff that I now know. LOL! I know it was hard on you cause Im slow when it comes to such things, but I hope to improve on it all. I feel that I need to give it at least a really hard try, to be better to myself, I run from here to there shooting with others, all the time and now I have the means of inviting, neewbies, amatuers, and other to my little studio here and do my own little thing.

 Also this year I am celebrating my independence from a lot of things, last year and the year before that was very hard on me, I lost alot, my mom died, I made a very hard choice to leave the guy I was with for almost 6 years, and I made the choice let go of few friendships (NYC/DC/FL) that just was not working out, some of it was because of my on and off agian issues,but none of my issue's harms a person heart or soul though (Im owning up to it).  Shit it's hard trying to navagate it all. Im telling the TRUTH here so you all can hear me say it. People love to twist shit, and paint me as "let me us some of there words that have hurt me at times, words like(Bitch, Lush, Stupid, Silly, dumb etc.) and not in playful ways and maybe Im to sensitive. (people I am not as hard core as you may think) I am Girly! Im only hard when backed into a corner.

You my fans can understand how words such as those to someone you consider a friend can hurt. But to my Fans and those who truly enjoy and like me I am human, just because I am 43 does not mean I have it all together all the time and I have such a crazy life I do it all on my own, and in some ways they may be right. But People always remember there are two sides to every gossiping whisper. My belief is this,True Freinds never insult each other, they may disagree, argue a point of veiw, and take time out from each other, But never put you down. Or make you feel less than. So I decided to  let lose and let go without disliking or hating anyone. Maybe we are all just wrong for the task, who knows....................

So enough with that aaawww poor SaXXX Shit! LOL! Really Im good though, You live you learn RIGHT? as one of my ex friends would say, Lol! I am doing things my way this year and I took the the time I would have used to go to Vegas and monies and spent them both well!  I got a nice new Cam, fixed up the SaXXX Suite here in Jersey, any one In and around New Jersey, New York want to drop in and sit a spell, SaXXX's Suite is always open for FUN, No snuttiness here and I promise to show you nothing but love. So, now I could bring to you my fans and those that really do like me my crazy ass ways and all, me doing me, and I hope to make great strides in bettering myself, my talents, as a producer, RudeStar, my Sex scenes, my mind, and my heart. I hope that you my fans will join me in my endeavor's to improve and be an uplift to me and all, not a critical insult to my Spirit and/or others. I will try to keep you up to date with great amatuer vids, like my Freebie's, clips, pictures, blogs and adventures. Hey! Im learning,  I want to spend more time at home so I can get my scehdule on point, I miss doing my live Rude shows. So lets try to be kinder to each other and have some Real Sexy Perving Fun! OKAY? Okay!

Ur  Favorite Gal Pal SaXXX!

Oh yeah and Be on the look out for my new project ! my Alter-Ego "Ma Ma MILF! She's old school wickedly Funny, Telling everyone How it T-R-U-L-Y IS! LOL!

OMG! I just can't seem to get this shit right for nothing! LOL! So:)
2:31PM on December 23, 2010

I will no longer be doing scheduled live cam shows. I am just to freakin busy and I do everything for myself. So to try and stay out of trouble with Rude Admin, I will only do live shows on the spare of the moment tip until I can get like an assistant or something to help me with all my stuff! LOL! Shit! I travel and do to many events to be trying to give a freaking scheduled time for this, I want to but it just is not working and I really don't want to lose my Rude account or the many Freinds and Rude Family I have here. So from now on I'll tweet,clitter,and or put it in my blog when I will be doing a show and hope for the best! Okay My Luvs? :) LMFAO!

Im so sorry Rude Admin, and whom ever else, im just such a busy lil bee. I din't mess up this time but I guess doing things on the spare of the moment now will be better then me trying to change get dressed and get off set to do a show here, and make sure my time zone is corrected , and my cam is ready to go and all this and that whew! Lol! Any way I hope you all can understand. I always mean well and I try hard to give great shows, but shit is crazy for me, I do everything alone and for myself so.

Well pep I was so upset when my laptop blow! I had a few freinds lined up and ready to go on cam, because we had had a swingers party and was doing filming of our video's. Damit it was going to be so much fun! I will try to get it poppin again one of these busy days! I like to try and get on when im already shooting or on set doing something crazy! Plus this way I can catch my haters off guard.

Do you know we actually have some people that are so hateful that if they know that you are going to be trying to hook up with others to do a show and or whatever it is, that they will make it there business to call that person to tell them and or what they call advise them not to? Cause this or that? Cause maybe they had a bad experience with them. Yeah some people are like that.

Well everyone I really do try to do my best, but you know sometimes things are rough on me and for so all I can do is continue to try! Like im editing some really sexy and fun footage now of Me and others partying in PA swingers club! and from or filming sunday so stay tuned! Muaw!

The Gal everyone luvs to hate! SaXXX!

PS Thanks Jaymadman and coacoa69 for calling me and helping me with my time zone change, and Thank RED MOD JOKER for making sure I was checked in because obvouisly they looked it ove and Im back on so, I guest they figure it all out. Thanks so much I owe you such sweet suckings and lickings and mmm , im making myself hot! LOL!

That Dick Was So Long and Big! OOH Hey My Rude Family! What's Up?
10:15AM on October 17, 2010


Hey all, I just been working hard at my shit learning new things getting schooled, you know when you doing it all yourself it's not easy. But hey I love doing it, cause there no DRAMA nor problems that comes from outer nowhere. If there's a situation it's all mine and I handle it. It's just all good now. I shoot my shit, or pay for it to be shot and then with paper work over there gone and I got my product, now I got fans Donating to me and my cause ( Drama Free Content) LOL! to do video's with them as you can see by my background, LOL That shit was off the hook 13inches OMG! Yeap! Told you I would. Hey and any of my private fans here if you like to shoot with me get at me okay, google my name you'll find that and my Number. Then you can Star right along with me. I love giving it to you, you know that! MMMmmmm! Any how My rude fam Much luv to u all and I'm not going no where, One other thing, sorry I'm not on cam a lot and or chat, sometime Cam&chat burns me out with the drama that goes on with chatting and the who said and did what, this is suppose to be about being sexy, adult fun but we have those that have made rude cams a place to harrasse and fuck with people and that is no longer fun for me. I wish there was a way to keep people like that out but it's not, So I take breaks. Well see you all very soon Cause I see ur emails and I know you want me back! Thanks Reggie, Jay, Scott, and so many other for ur personal emails and following me on twitter. Thanks visiting my new website, just thanks to you all at Rude, I just love the love, your the BEST! MUAW!!! 

Freinds of mine said this to me, & I was thinking it, I hate to toot my own horn, I'm SaXXX Icth
5:09PM on October 03, 2010

Saxxx I am an attractive and stylish former fashion model new to the adult film industry. I am based in New York City, but would be delighted to and am available for travel to any city in the USA as well as internationally. I have entertained people of all types and have lead a very interesting life (fashion model, exotic dancer, cover girl). I love working in the exciting world of Erotic Entertainment and I am very interested in learning more about the adult entertainment/film/Internet business. Home: New York City (but Have live from Key West to Canada and all in between, traveled alot.) Gender: Female Orientation: Bi-Sexual Ethnicity: African American & Puerto Rican Body Type: Average Hair Color: Black (and varies with what I'm doing) Patti La Bell and Wendy Williams has nothing on me, lol! Eye Color: Brown ( also can vary...) Height: 5 ft 8 in (172.72 cm) Weight: 140 lbs. Measurements: 36C, 27, 41 Piercings: Belly Button, Clit Tattoos: Lower Back Shoe Size: 8 1/2 Will Travel: Yes AIMS Tested: Yes (as often as I work) Hit the clinic once a month, this is very important in the adult biz Skill Level: Very Skilled... Available For: Boy/Girl; Girl/Girl; Oral; Solo Masturbation; Interracial; and Some Fetishes Credits: 4-5 Black Tail and Black Beauties Magazines cover shoots w/ inside layouts and interviews,1Leg Show Magazine Cover and layout, Filmed one anal scene and one B/G for West Coast Productions, featuring the ever so fine and talent "Mr. Rock" called "Bitch Got Talent" Volume # 1 my very first and at that time my ass was ripped open so I felt it was my last, lol! I have also done Amateur video with for bucksbotherfilms (is now Known as Shot4Profit with EmpressDC and Buck here on rude) yeah Iv'e Known Buck before them all. I have exotic danced all over NYC, strip clubs such as Scores, Flash Dancers, and the very Famous Paradise Club in which I became the first ever Black Miss paradise with Lead me to The Robyn Bryd Show. Where I met legends such as "Vanessa Del Rio" and "Wendy Whoppers" and the list goes on and Florida I danced at Flash dancers, Platinum Club, The infamous "House Of Babes", and The very famous "Club Juana". I also Danced in a many Go Go clubs, Decko's in Orlando for the "Jamaican Me Crazy" "Hero's Night Club" with "Two Live Crew" one of my favorite dance crew and family from Miami .Venus and Concerts, JJ whispers, and the list goes on right on up to the Big Apples, Webster Hall, Lime Light, and Tunnel. I have Dance the Dance of a thousand dancers LOL! I am a former Fashion model that because a little bit to heatlhy(THICK ASS and Thighs) for the fashion industry, I made the great choice to become an Adult model and later Entertainer. I also have done countless on air interview's and Dance scenes on "The Robin Bryd Show". Which aired in NYC in the 90's I believe. I can been seen in a movie Called "Six Ways to Sunday" Starring Debby Harry and Issac Hayes . I'm dancing onstage swigging on a pole. I have been interview and pictured with Ms. Robin Byrd and lady friends taking for the NY Post paper on the movie review for "Show Girls" in which Demi More Stared as a stripper. In the past 3-4 years my lastest adventures, includes a very brief partnership with Back Shot Production, which ended with me terminating my contract due to in differences. Next working on my on , team up with alot of varies people just to shot footage for exchange, that can be seen mostly on www.rude.com/SAXXXJUST4U. that web site can still be viewed daily. Also took a trip to the AVN awards (Adult Video Network) out in Vegas, Did all kinds of interviews, with DannyBlaqVideos. It's was a blast, Pictures and my interviews can be seen at sexyasssaxxx. I'm currently in the works with afew other great project and I plan on NOT slowing down at all, so if your looking to Film and or? just want a one on one sinsational good time with me ,

I like trying to be as real as needed, and we all need to understand life is an Experience, Right!
9:37AM on September 04, 2010

by dburger
26-30 year old man

A Story From A Group I Know That It Will Work Out In the End


Life is 100% relative to your situation.  Your life is built on your expectation.  What you expect from a situation will determine whether or not you will be let down or amazed.  For instance, if youre going see a movie and someone tells you its a great movie, and all you hear about it is how good it is.  You go to see it and it doesnt live up to your expectations.  Well, your then a little let down even if the movie was pretty good.  Every aspect of life is like that.

 If youre going through a tough or bad situation it feels so much better when things get better.  The tougher or harder the situation the better it feels later.  I myself have gone through it time and time again, and I dont expect it to stop.  I just live for the good times and survive through the bad times.  For me things are a little more extreme mainly because I am bipolar.   So, the good times are really good and the bad times are tough.

Early in my life I went through a tough situation.  In middle school, I went through a public school hell.  I wrote a piece on it, but it made my private high school experience so much sweeter.  The middle school I went to was about ninety percent black and high school I went to was about ninety percent white.  I went from being picked on every day to being voted class favorite.  But all those wonderful high school years set me up for a big letdown later on.

After high school, I went on to college to chase my dream.  Things were great for about a year or so.  Then my long time high school sweetheart broke up with me.  Well I stayed in college from then on I struggled.  I failed a Calculus class and a few others along the way.  But, what kept me motivated was the fact that no one expected me to graduate college.  Again expectations comes into play, I pushed on an graduated college.  It felt unbelievable to graduate, but in my mind I thought graduating college would fix all my problem.  By that time, I had started dating a girl that was great, smart, pretty, going to be a doctor.  The problem was that I didnt love her.  In my mind I thought me being an Engineer and her being a Doctor, we would make a boat load of money and be perfectly happy. I found out the hard way that money does mean anything.

Once again expectations come into play, I started working as an Engineer in a really nice office thinking this is going to be great.  I so realized that I hated working in the office. I found myself hating my job and dating a girl that I didnt want to marry.  So what happened, I had a mental break down went into a mental hospital for a week.  I came out a different person.  A few weeks later I broke up with my girlfriend and quit my job.

Its been over four years since I broke up with her and about the same since Ive worked as an Engineer.  Now, Im almost thirty and Im single.  I can honestly say that Im just about as happy now as Ive ever been.  Yea its hard watching all my friends getting married and having kids.  And yea I feel a little jaded because Im not sure if I want to bring another girl into my life.  Im a little worried about the future. 

To everyone out there that are in bad situations, just make it through and know that better days are coming.  No matter what tomorrow is a new day and things somehow someway work themselves out in the end.       


Posted on August 28th, 2010 at 5:08AM

I'm Can So Relate! AMEN!

My Fans This Is How People Like to Fuck Over SaXXX, A Must Read ! I'm Just Saying, I told you I woul
1:32AM on August 31, 2010

The story behind the scenes, with Ky& Kn. How They Fucked me (SaXXX) Over Unfairly, plus Kn trying to dis me.
First let me make this clear I had a great liking for Ms. K, felt she was really cool and was flattered that this young

women would want to work with me. My old ass, I never once felt she would say nor do the things that has been done to

me, neither do I still think she would have if it had not been for Kn. I don't dislike her,nor did I dis like Kn, But I had also

been warned, by a few people, not just My DC people I had been working with, but others. But for me I like to give people

at least a chance. I mean after all that's what others do for me, give me a chance. We all need them from time to time.

Plus I like Ms. K talent, lol!
I was contacted by Miss Kn, believing it to be Ms. Ky K. Which I later found out that Kn is the one that basically does all

the talking, calling booking, searching for gigs, etc. Ky just performs. Not that she isn't capable of doing these things

herself as she has told me a many times, but she likes to chill. Kn her partner is really into all the hustling of it all, and

now I know yeah HUSTLING and not the good Hustle. I really wanted to believe that they really didn't mean to just

forget that we shot footage together one for her and one for me, in which I get my copy of doing her and she gets a copy

of her doing me, you all know what I mean. I waited for months, I even allowed Kn to come over and stay once again

at my apartment, which I had done once before when we all first met. They came over and stayed for like a day or two

the first time. I was so excited, My guy and I cleaned like we had family coming over form out of town. I even went shopping

for a few things and cooked just to make them feel welcome. I think this is what you do right, when you are tring to

impress and make lasting business deals and  maybe even friends. Yeah you could met out at a dinner, but Im like this

down home type lady, and me inviting you to my house is showing that I real.
 We'll now all during the first time and this time, they had shots and interviews for Ky in NYC and Had invited me, in

which at first I knew I had no funds to be going to New York, But I'm from New York so I had a place there and my guy

could front me really, but I was like naw maybe next time. Then Kn insisted and said she and Kelly would handle it,

that they had my back, Kn telling My Guy at that time Robbie this, She was like SaXXX I'll ask Robert for you. He was

like he didn't want me to go, plus she ain't got no money to be going on a road trip, but finally I gave and went. Letting

them no if we needed to I got a place we can stay, but Kn say's we got this, Cause Kz had this income tax check

and bla bla bla. So I was like I'll help drive, that made Ky happy, cause she is always driving.

Anyway people, New York was great, we get there and check in, and not getting into all the little petty stuff here, that

Kn did, and how she would piss Ky off. I enjoyed anyway. I sat back and watch as what's Sub Zero's pep stop

through to interview Ky, and surprised the shit out of Kn only because she believe's she knows everything, and all at

23. Sob was like looking at me saying, "wow you look like someone I know" to me. I just giggled and Kn say's oh yeah

that's SaXXX, she's a squirter too. Then Sub goes OOOhHH Shit SaXXX you a Legend, you the girl from Black Tails

Magazine, Yo, don't leave. Cause the room was so small I didn't want to be in the way, so I was just going to go down the

street and see if I could get a drink. But I told them thanks, but this is about Ms. Kz, we can possibly hook up on my

time. I mean isn't that how it should be done? I not going to go somewhere with some one and just take over there shit,

it's just not proper. any how they film for a while and I chilled down the street. Should have went to my place in Jersey.

Well the next day same type thing happen, Ky shooting with Ms. Jessi Love Star and another interview, and Im there

tagging along, before all this Kn and Ky had told me feel free to get mine in too, But really I just was there to kinda

see how all this was going down, met some new people network you know. Not really jump in on her thing, but as time went

by Kn was telling me it's all good me, that is after the second interviewer, recognized me too, lol! So then you know when people

recognize an person like me and I been around, you can't deny a LEGEND can you? Lol!  So I got in on some of the shoot, I

can't remember the guys but they new me and wanted me in on her shot, I spoke a little to the camera and then help Kelly

in Squirting, and Squirt she did, all over the Camera, it was so fucking funny, the guy was like oh shit, she almost took out

the cam, Lol! aaawww good times, I wish we all could just stay having them. But Not possible huh? So then we shoot with

Jessi LoveStar also it was fun. So I got a little in too.

Now the night then morn and money low for them so I suggest as I did before us getting there let's stay at my sis house

in Jersey, But I guess they didn't figure on having to park the car at garages that charge a arm and a leg. And or they

just did not believe me when I told them I have a home with my sis, I have the keys and we can just go and stay there, my

sis won't mind. So any how off we head to my sis and I home. We get there and there like mouth open, this yours and I

say I told you, It's more my sis, but we had this place for some time, I put my key in the door and they walk in, Ky

telling Kn "Don't you touch shit!" Lol! Cause well if you guys seen one of my shows I did form the house you would

know we have a  Grand Piano, and the house is just 4 levels of beautiful stuff tat we have collected and deck the house

out with. My sis and I worked hard back in the days when they had all the hottest clubs, like lime light, webster hall, tunnel

and shit was outrages and fun. We made our money and invested and also she bought this beautiful house. So we would all

have a home to come to if we ever found our selve in need.

 Kn asked if she could hump my sis leg? I was like huh? why? cause my sis got it all going on? Lol! We stayed my sis

even called and ask if she needed to send the maid there to cook for us and they where like dam! I said I told you guys, I

had a life, and that you really don't know who I truly am, cause if you did, Kn would not have been going on and on

about how to run things, how to be a bitch when it comes to getting things, done, oh and yeah telling my sis that I, Get this

I (SaXXX) hangs out with these nasty ass group of people, that take advantage of here, to which my sis asked, "so what is

she doing with you two and what are your attention toward her? "Cause she ( SaXXX) has a very good heart and I known

her her whole life and people do try to use her, cause she is a good person, but she's not weak at all. She just has very kind

heart, a little too kind". I went into the other room once i heard that acting as if I didn't though, lol! So we leave the

next day headed back to DC, I forgot that during this time Kn was telling me all along not to trust this person and that

person,( meaning the peolpe I had been working with in DC) and that just because Im older, don't mean nothing, and bla, bla, bla,. So much so that as Ky driving she's

feeling the need to light up, So I say pull over we change set and I put the petal to the mother fucking petal to the metal, 90 all the

way back! Dam!

Well I tell you guys all this so you can get a general sense of how things where. Oh Yeah while They had stay over to my

place Kn and Ky told me a lot about themselves, stuff so personal about the cutie Ky, I just won't share, cause

Im not like that I just wouldn't tell people about it, because even though Im upset that she would texted me dissing me

about shit she assumed, it's not in my personality to try and hurt someone by telling there really heart torn tragedies, that

will be mine and her secret to my grave, cause she and I both had terrible things happen to us that should not be so.

That's just me, I can't speak for Ky or Kn. But Kn is due this from me, just because she was never truthful, and she cam at me like she can me all wrong, Not lady like at all. She

is a manipulating, thieving, trouble making, little fat, smelly, unchuffed, unwashed Bitch. Yeap thats how pissed I will always be with

her, cause Of how she came off trying to handle me.

She told me and showed me stuff that maded me even warn her if she ever did that shit with me, well you know. People

she told me how when she stayed, with this one guy, how because he didn't give her something she wanted, she waited for

him to go to the bathroom and went into his phone took the sims card out and download the imfo from then replaced it

without him knowing it, she showed me how to follow, the girls on Back Page, how to use some others name and pic for

escorting service. She was even posting for me, but I just asked how it all worked, where was the good spots. Because i

was going to be leaving my guy and I might just have to care for self. You know, but the things she did and how she said

she can even plant a virus on someone computer that will save and send her there imfo. I was like Dam and before I

could get it out of my mouth, she says, I know I'm a trifiling mean bitch, but I only do this to people that do shit to me. I

was like in my head of course. Oh Boy! This chick here is scary, How did her and Ky get together and why. But they told

me that story to so I know why. I mean if it was the truth I was told.

 Ok so fast forward to month later haven't heard back from them since trip but maybe once, twice, finally I get a call

it's Kitten asking if she can crash at my place, im thinking it's Ky and I say of course, not really thinking to ask about

my footage, because in my head I would think she would bring it with her. At the time of the call, I'm standing in front

of DB, so as I hang up DB looks at me and ask did you get your footage and I say oh yeah, I call her back. it's Kn and

she knows Im not to happy with her, so I ask are you bringing my footage, and she replies, oh me and Ky broke up, and

how Ky's not doing anymore porn and all this and so she packed all her things and took it all to her family place she

don't have it. So I asked I thought you where asking to crash at my house because of Ky, she's like no, so im like why

you wanna stay at my place if Ky not going to be with you why you need to stay with me, she replies cause she has some

girls working in DC and she needs to deal with something. So Im scratching my head like ? Then I call Ky and Im like

what is going on, she's like no we not together anymore, come to find out Kn is sitting next to Ky, even though the

have told me they broke up, and I guess Kn just feels as she has told me she can get Bitches to to anything for her. So

I know this is going to sound stupid on my part, I told them okay anyway. Hanging up the phone DB looks at me like WTF!

Yeah I know people, But I had a reason for allowing this and that was if they really showed up, I could have a sit down

and try to understand there method of madness.

I get to my house they come in and I sit at my desk and let Kn Know Im not crazy about you and the only reason I let

you stay is because of Ky. I go to take a bath and I call Ky into the bathroom and I tell her what I did not like and

how she should consider what type of a girl she has, and how it is damaging here career in this biz if she continues letting

Kn talk for her and in the way she comes off to people, I told her that people in the industry had called me and told me

about how they did not like Kn, and they way she conducted biz, ( I won't name names of these people cause they did

nothing wrong, but try to warn me) she says she knows and that she be trying to tell Kn that, But she does what she

wants to do anyway. So I tell Ky I got luv for her but I can't stand Kn and the bitchy way she handles things, and

Im disappointed in them both. Kn promise me she will get me my footage and I wish them good luck on there journey

into what ever. So people I never see them again, until one day I get a call about some work and about this chick that

would host for me, from Kn telling me she transffered the accounts she did for me to her because she to busy. That

shortly feel apart too, cause for some reason (my Fault really) but these chicks are like 22-23 and telling me how I need

to get my nails done , how I don't know how to place ads, and just because im older Kn says to me by phone it don't

mean shit just crazy, but in one day one day I brought in 2 grand. I think my old ass is doing well. I got the jist of it all.

So I go it all alone after two days.

More time goes by and I get these texted back to back, "All Beats are off" "Old Bitch you must be doing crack, we put

your ass on to money when none of those nasty ass people you dealing with would". "SaX I really liked you man, but you

going around saying shit about me, I never did anything to you man"   I'm like WTF? who is this? I look at this number and

Im shocked cause it's actually Ky texting me this. Now dig this I haven't heard from neither one of them, so I dropped

trying to get my footage from them, all the while being picked on from others for trusting them in the first place. Still

more text coming in at this time I could tell it wasn't Ky that it was probably Kn riding her fat ass along side

texting, "you crazy bitch that's why your man is cheating on you and on and on. So I call them up with WTF? Kys trying

to tell me how she just got finish hearing from Kn how someone that's been my friend for a very long time and has

never done me wrong, just got finished telling her how I told him about, they was homeless, and had STD's  and some hear

say shit. So Im like why would I call up some one in LA and tell them anything, you guys probably got this wrong, I know

this guy well and I know he did say SaX said shit! So I tell them I m going to call him and ask and then I hear Kn in the

background "it was that bitch she know she said that shit"! I just hung up and called out to LA, Come to find out they had

not showed up for this persons shoot after he spent his money to fly to DC to shoot with Ky and He told me that he

RIPPED Her a new asshole, telling her that he had heard from SEVERAL SOURCES all type of stuff, but he said He

never  ever put my name in it at all. So Im like cause I haven't talk with you dude in years, so he's like Kn just mad and

needs someone to blame for her fucking up. So him  I talk about other things like when i'm going to get some of that agian

sense he was the first anal scene I even did. It was with him and we made plans.

Now while him and I are talking guess who calls him? Ms Kn, LMFOA! He tells me what she is saying and she trying to

apologize, he said Finally after like 4 month he didn't hear shit from them. LOL! Well I get of the phone with him and he

forwards me her text to him and then I call her ass back and tell her straight up enough is enough cause if I had anything

to say about you I would have said it in your face when you asked to stay at my house, you probably are feeling  bad and

thinking you can push your pain off on me, but it wasn't me and everybody and they momma knows what type shit you

been doing and going through,  your right Im to old for shit like this, as you said all bets are off I don't need to be dealing

with people like you, and it's fine with me, cause I don't want friends such as you.

People this whole thing was fucked up from day one, me even meeting Kn, I never had said anything to anyone, but as i

told her, people around me heard  and seen the things you said to me, cause they was there when you called me, and

maybe things got twisted, from hear say. But How dare you text some one with such bullshit, after all that person has

done and put up from you, You only 23 and Im 43 with years of bonded freindships, and experiences that has made me a

kind human being and you come at me with this silly shit, and yet you still haven't done right by me, after you ask me to

film with you guys! Don't ever cross my apath again and I hung up the phone. The END!

PS. Did you like? This is all a true story, a day in life of SaXXXJUST4U! Now You all see why I made stop hating video

part1 and 2! There are other great true tells I must tell people about how some of these so called friends have treated me, that I will

be blogging and telling you about.  Just so all know I'm not crazy or a bad person, but this is why I am on things the way

I am now, why people feel they need to treat me like these two did I have no clue. I never talk shit or try to say bad

things about anyone, Im always helping people out, and so on. But all this shit I been through just trying to do content

exchange and maybe make a few friends along the way has cause me to retreat. I refuse to deal with it, and or try to sort

thru who's my friend and who's not. Who will do good business and who will fuck me over. I will do my shit alone and have

fun, it may be hard for me cause I don't know all the tech shit I should but damit man! I can't be dealing with shit like

this, plus be a mom, Grandma, girlfriend, biz partner, and run my biz. Then have to chase someone down for what's mine.

Just like some one else that really wants me back, just called me the other day. Trying to find away to say let's work

together again, but had nerves to send me a nasty ass email, calling me a drunk, that nobody knows who the fuck I am,

one old ass magazine I did, all kinds of stuff. But you forget this same old ass drunk get's the mother fucking job done

and I look good getting it in, plus it's what the people want that makes you money and the people want SAXXX. So again

why are you calling me, and if you wanna even try to butter me up, where's my half of the income that the site has

brought in, huH? that is is why I'm not doing any more for anyone, you keep those 4-5 short videos running  and cheating

people out of there money cause when they join there not told that, SaXXX is no longer filming with them and you will

only see those few clips. Oh yeah and this person also Has footage that I never received, but I see it being sold on the net. Just wait til you see what I have in store for that shit too. SaXXX has stopped taken shit, and being a push over. I still have my good heart, but now I use

my brain and just like I did with drinking, now I say Hell No, to all you fucked up, chip on your shoulder type, suppose to be

business minded professionals, rip offs!, Users!

*** Remember KARMA, deals with a person personality, you people who do shit like this, it's going to come back to you Seven folds.**

So to all my REAL Fans Now You KNOW!  just what the fuck is really up with SaXXX! Why I been so to my self, Why she is the way she is now, I can't let people get away with this type shit anymore.
So Please don't do it!

Whwew!!! Enjoy all the clips, I got much more to come........................

I'm about to post, Footage that's been taking up room on my hard drive, So I hope many of you enjoy,
3:23PM on August 28, 2010

Okay! Okay! Look people I have a lot of footage that I never got around to posting. Some of it's scene's, Funny, Sexy, Crazy, Nasty, and some of it's behind the scene but all of it's good. Cause all of it is starring Me! Ur Favorite Gal Pal SaXXX! Bka SaXXXJUST4U Aka SaXTripleX!
For those of you that are co starring , please don't get upset I had to clean up my hard drive, and make extra room, plus cash, so deal with it! Dam you'd do the same to me. I don't know why I feel so bad at times about doing things that may bother others cause they never have a second thought about what would bother me, and if they do, they do it anyway, lol so sorry and on with the Footage. (You know I care but money comes first you got yours now Let me make mine)

To all my fans I hope you enjoy, and to all my New Fans Bon Apatite!  And WELCOME to my Lovely MESS!

Ur Gal Pal SaXXX BKA SAXXXJUST4U, Google me baby! if you don't know.........

PS. Let's all stay "Drama Free" this has been a public service announcement, lmfao.........................

ooooohhh SaXXXJUST4U is Just So Nasty! LOL! Im just saying, to each it's own, I just find this is wh
2:32AM on August 04, 2010

Saxtriplex SAXXXJUST4U  Great Blog read all about SaXXX and the Bull Shit, LOL! at: SaXXXJUST4U and What's Happening (Clean): Im Okay with being a solitude person, I have had 2 marraiges, countless courtships and lots of freinds and now all I want is to Work and Chill, without MIND/Heart GAMES! People try to UNDERSTAND, Step Into My 43 year old shoes. Im Just Saying, Not Complaing, Im Just Trying Explaining to all who come at me like..... NO OFFSITE LINKS ALLOWED

Thanks to all that stopped in on my show last night! even the one Hater!
1:31AM on July 28, 2010

I had alot of fun last night, thanks to you all, it's been a  while and  I have had a lot going on, but nothing stops the sexy and mature. if I did everything I do for the funds I would never get anywhere, but I've found that doing what you enjoy is key. I  am sexy, i never meant to be and growing up I never said "when I grow up I want to be a sex goddess, it just is, that way for me. Shit back in my days there where no crazy shit like this let alone your people letting you get away with it, like we do today, with out being outcast. Well that something Im use to, being an outcast, lol! When you are different or choose to be different it can be hard but, its all worth it if you understand this, You are unique, there is noone else like YOU! Your GOD made you the way you are, he knew and knows all about you, do you think it matter to him really what we do, it matter to him who we are within, and he gave you all that you are good and bad, we are earthly being so we think with earthly minds, but not Him, So what do you or I care what man may think of us, and or what we have chosen to do with our bodies, we create ourown destinies not the people around us. Believe in self and your greater Being, cause in the in the haters die too and face there end the same way we do, and at least we kept it real, at least I know i did. i love all haters, you gave me reason, and meaning and without you, life would be boring, for real, Muaw! keep living my ppl what goes around comes around!

I Almost Died A Few Days Ago, Kidney Stones Can Kill, along with added stressers, but I'm Still Here
5:18AM on July 18, 2010

 

I just wanted you all to know what has been going on in my world, I want to Thank each and everyone of you for having such great time with me also, and to let you know I'm not gone.

I have had alot of changes happen in my personal life, one major one is the break up of my five long year relationship, two is I moved back to New York where I originally come from, and three dealing with a number of life threating health issue, non of which has to do with an STD and or AIDS Okay! Yeah I know how some think. Im all good in those area.... Lol! Freaking Haters!

Any how! I had not been feeling well from way earlier this year, but you know ladies how we just pushing on! We push on with everything, work, children, boyfreinds bullshit, and all the other shit like family drama! LOL! "OMG! My Niece is a PornStar!" and she didn't say it in a nice accepting way, either! Lol!

Well Im one of those, I try very hard to go the extra mile, for freinds, assocaites, business, Distressed and Really  truth be told homeless people I just happen to meet and try to house clothe and feed thru the kindness of my Overly Big Heart.

That's another crazy story I may tell one day! But not now! Anyway, I kinda was so busy I stop eating well, yeah I went to the gym but never drank enough water! Then on top of that drinking that wine, coffee, tea, and other dehydrating beverges and eating not alot but just enough greasing foods, coupled with stress and  me getting a little more mature in age, all accumlated into SERVERE KIDNEY STONES!   OOOOHHHHCCEEEE!!!!

Ladies if you have ever given birth, try passing a stone, birth is a pleasure party compared to this shit! And I have not one but several in one kidney and a massive one in the other. Need I tell you " I almost died on JULY 9th"! What a way to go....

Well they found that and then they found a cyst on my ovarie, now dam! who's trying to kill me! Who! put the hex out on me, I never did you wrong, LOL! Just kidding, about the hex thing. Any how I don't believe in that, cause my God is stronger.... So I just wanted you all to know a lil of what Im going thru, and yes I am better, and I am still trying to get sexy things in but I think, they will be a little more laid back. IE masturbation, waterplay,sexy pics, clothiing, etc. you know?

So Friends keep me in your prayers and know that Im crazy about you all and Ill be trying to get back online and have some sexy fun, at least for the mature audience you do know that stones don't stop a person from being sexy, it just delays the jiggle when you wiggle, lol! Hope to be back online live soon, coming to you from a new location! at my beautiful home in The Big and Beautiful NEW YORK!!!  Muaw! I love you all, stay sexy and perverted always Muaw! SaXXX Ur Favorite Gal Pal!

Fictional, and or Fiction, either way, Im good with me, and I love my reviews,lol!
11:33AM on June 26, 2010

Every once in awhile, I need to see a mature women to get the kind of high quality service that most of the younger ladies haven't yet figured out how to provide. Mz. X (aka Saxxx) had some hot postings on ____ and stellar reviews on ____, so she seemed to fit the bill and I gave her a call. She was very pleasant on the phone, so I scheduled a session and arrived at her incall location about an hour later. I knocked on her door and it was opened by a tall and very sexy woman who looked every bit as attractive as her pics indicated. I had a great time with Saxxx over the next hour.



Saxxx welcomed me into her apartment and greeted me with a warm hug. She introduced me to her "photographer" who was sitting on the couch and working on a laptop. Initially I found the presence of another guy a little disconcerting, but Saxxx's friendly demeanor and maturity quickly put me at ease as she grabbed my hand and led me to her bedroom. After some initial pleasantries, she stood in front of me, put her arms around me and gave me a nice long DFK. She then slipped out of her dress and pressed her gorgeous tits up to my mouth for me to suck on. She has really incredible knockers that are much finer than most girls younger than her. She had me lay back on the bed and we proceeded to DFK some more before she moved down to suck on my nipples for awhile. She then moved further down to give me a superb BBBJ complete with plenty of eye contact, deepthroat, spit, and attention to the boys. When she didn't have my cock down her throat or my balls in her mouth, she was telling me how nice my cock was and how much she loved sucking it. She backed off a little here and there to make it last longer for me before she finally asked me if she could climb on top of my cock and ride it. Saxxx placed a cover on me with her mouth and fucked me CG for a few minutes before telling me she wanted me to pound her pussy doggie style. I obliged and hit it from the back for awhile as I took in the view of her fabulous round ass before filling the cover. After cleaning up and talking for a few minutes with her snuggled up against me, the next round began with some very enthusiastic DFK. I then slowly kissed and licked my way down her body, spending quite a bit of time kissing her spectacular tits and sucking on her big erect nipples before reaching her Y. Her kitty was already wet but was also very clean and tasted great. She was very responsive to DATY, both vocally and with her body. She came at least once and actually may have cum 3 or 4 times. She asked to taste her pussy, so I gave her a few nice long DFKs. I then moved up so she could suck my dick again. She soon had me straddling her face. Her hands were on my backside and she repeatedly pulled me toward her so that I was fucking her face quite aggressively. With each thrust, Saxxx eagerly swallowed my cock to the hilt. I tee-bagged her for a minute or so before thrusting my cock down her throat again and then finished by cumming on one of her big tits. We cleaned up and talked for a few minutes before I got dressed and prepared to leave. She walked me to the door, we hugged and said good bye, and I left.

Saxxx is a wonderful mature lady. She is full GFE. She is very attractive and has a terrific body. With the exception of a little bit of a stomach, her body is nearly flawless. She has smooth skin with no ink that I can recall. In between the action, she is a great conversationalist and makes you feel like she is your GF. I will definitely repeat with this wonderful lady!


This is just one of the many beautiful stories I read about myself.. Somewhere???? LOL! Wink Wink! Hey lady you know, Keeping things real always.

There are many sick people in this world!
5:25PM on April 13, 2010

Schemers will always fall prey to there Own Schemes! thats why I always Have JOY!!!
1:54AM on April 01, 2010

 Schemers will always fall prey to there Own Schemes! thats why I always Have JOY!!!

Like MJB says "Im Doing Just Fine"

Rude pep, Since I been gone, what's been up?
10:41AM on March 28, 2010

I have been away taking care of family. So wihile I was away for four glories days, what have you all been up to? 

Thru trials and Era.... Peps!
12:34AM on March 05, 2010

I know there are  some that like to think dam SaXXX is slow, But just for the Record... thru trail and era u learn, no one knows or can learn everything over nite. But thu patient and my strong detemination, I have stride 2 shut some of u up and give the rest my very best luv.
 
No hatred toward any of you who may have doubted me, just my very sincere thanks to you for it, it has been a great motivation for me then to show you all to not be such, Know it all, Viscous, Cocky, Pride Filled, Uncuffed Beings.
 
Everyone learn and do things in there on way, mine way is thru love, Patience, Trail and Era. Noone can pic my freinds in Biz or other wise, I learn about there ways on my own terms and then if that person is not fit to be in my arena, because they may do something tryfulling, or uncalled for towards me, I let it go but with love.
Then they can sit back and see Im still going to be me and just how wrong they really where! People, Freinds and Business  partner are hard to come by. Be Just in what every you do and just will come back to you.Muaw!
 
Im still evolving........

I need noone, but I love having you as my freinds, always! Ur Gal Pal ....... SaXXX