Morning :)I had bad dreams :(
1:52PM on July 28, 2008
Well tech afternoon for most hehe. I know I know I cant help Im a total night owl. I have been taking something trying to get into bed at a reasonable hour so i can have a few daylight hours to get things done in LOL :) It does help tht I have been having crazy dreams and not the best either. Night before I dreampt is tht a real word?? It is today he he so I had a dream I was on a large boat not unlike the Titanic an just like in the movie I was on the back end of the boat and it crested a big wave and then took a nosedive and the boat began to sink vertically and there i was holding on the back end watching the water rush towards me, I woke up right when I would have hit the water. It was terrifying. Last nights didnt make much sense to me but I think I know where it came from. I was in the US but it was in a state of panic, it was if the war was at home.From wht I could gather there was a seperation and sort of ethnic cleasing going on and anyone thought to be muslim(not sure if tht is the correct religion, but the Quran was their bible) or anything of the sort was being shot on site. My familiy is interracial with caucasion but in the dream they were of the race tht was being persecuted. It was a dream full of trying to reunite with other family and find a safe haven. There was a moment when were were cornered I wasnt suspected bcs of my race but my cousins wife was captured and there was a Quran near her on a bench it was assumed to be hers, an as i watched she was struck and fell to the ground. Her child was standing near and I grabbed him and ran. The rest of the dream I am trying to find shelter,and food and keep him hidden as we run thru a war stricken city. It was crazy and very scarey.
I think I was prompted to have this dream bcs some ignorant person sent me a request to do a pic set disgracing said book and I for one refuse to do anything related to religious insensitivity. While I am a spiritual being tht doenst happen to agree with most organized religion I still offer them respect as they all are originally rooted in a good place I believe even if we dont always agree with the messages. Its people like the person tht requested the pic set tht are responsible for alot of the hate in the world so I think it had me on the subject of all the things tht have happened in historty bcs of a belief system and it got carried over to my dream I dunno but I awoke with a start.
So now Im trying to fight tears as I write this bcs I know tht my dream was just a skim of the big picture of whats really actually going on right now in our world. Somewhere a mother is being seperated from her child, families are being torn apart all over the globe as i sit nice and comfy having my coffee and blogging. Its a very disturbing,humbling realization. Ok now I have to attempt going about my regular day one of the days I actually wish I did someting else for a living :) Its very hard to remain sexy and inviting when ur brain is dealing with life issues especially when so many forget tht we are real people who happen to be cam models
Alrighty Im off now to try and have a better day, and lets all remember to be greatful for wht we have this moment
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